Mommy's Girl!

Yesterday was the first day in 3 1/2 weeks I was able to hold Kate. I was definitely ready for it. It's still a little hard trying to juggle all of the equipment, but we did it. We've found that she likes to be held up rather than cradled. She is such a sweet girl.

Kate is still doing well on the BiPAP. However, she is having a hard time blowing off her CO2, which is causing her to require more positive pressure. At this point, she hasn't really shown a significant change in coming closer to breathing on her own. We've decided to schedule the Tracheostomy surgery for Monday. However, we haven't lost hope that in the next couple of days, she could turn a corner and therefore, not have to go through with the surgery. One great thing is now that she is off all of the narcotics, she is so active and back to the old Kate.

Kate is G-R-E-A-T!!!!

Kate is rocking this BiPAP. She has done really well on it. She's slowly going down on her settings. Because it generally takes Kate a little longer to heal, we're giving her about a week on the BiPAP to see if she can get stronger. We're hoping that she can get to a point where she can go home on it and just require it a couple times a day and maybe at night. We're still unsure if her Trachea can heal that fast.....so a Tracheostomy is still an option. But, she's proven that she can overcome things.......just on her own time. So for now, she will be here a couple more days. We are really anxious for Kate to come home. Bryan is most anxious to start taking her to football games.......GO COUGARS!!!

Before and After....

Hopefully, this is the last of the ventilator.....
.....but is this any better :)

Well, it seems that Kate has turned a corner. She did really well this morning and continued to progress throughout the afternoon. After consulting with Dr. Larsen, we decided to go for it and try and extubate her. Bryan and I felt really good about it. We mainly wanted to give her a fair shot to see if she could handle it on her own, knowing there's a chance that they may have to re-intubate her. But so far, she has done really well. I don't know if she thinks it's the greatest thing to have a extra "schnozz" (the BIPAP mask), but it beats having a tube down her throat! As she gets used to it, we'll turn her settings down. This is what she will most likely come home with, but she may not require it all the time, which would be so great for her. We just pray that the BIPAP will be enough to keep her Trachea open until it strengthens on its own.

B-I-N-G-O

Every week, the older kids in the PICU get to play BINGO. The great thing about BINGO here is that everyone is a winner......even if they don't show up! So, Kate's prize was this cute little dog. Since Kate isn't able to play BINGO, I've been teaching her the BINGO song. It's become one of our favorites.

We had hoped that Kate would be extubated this weekend, but she has gotten some kind of sickness. They thought it might be pneumonia, but a chest x-ray proved that to not be the case...whew! I swear, if it's not one thing....it's another. So, it's still a waiting game. She's feeling much better today, though. So it's just a matter of Kate being able to heal on her own.

Day 18.....

This has definitely been a long road for us the last couple of weeks. Kate had a spontaneous trial off her vent last night and didn't do very well. So, we're going to give her a couple more days and see how she does before considering taking her off the vent completely. She has let us know that she is doing things on "Kate's Time." So, we just need to be patient. She has slept most of the day, except for long enough to blow out her diaper (literally BLOW out). It's great though that she is getting good rest and not fighting the tubes. She has seemed to heal really well from her surgery and is doing great with her feedings, with no sign of reflux....yay! We think this will really help her.

Kate's New Tricks...

Kate has learned some new tricks since being in the hospital. So, she does this thing where she starts to cry and then the next second she totally stops and then looks at Bryan and I to see if we are watching and then goes back to crying. It's the funniest thing. Also, she started learning how to blow bubbles out her nose! Yes.....we Rosenvall's sure are talented :) I'm sure
Kate is going to love these pictures when she's older.

Not much has changed since yesterday. Obviously, they didn't try to take her off the vent today. We want to make sure that she is ready, so it might be tomorrow or the next, or the next.....we're not sure. She is doing really well though. Her coloring looks great and her sats are stying high, so that's always a good sign. We're keeping our fingers crossed.

"I think I will throw a fit......
".......is anyone watching me?"

"Yes.....that is a bubble coming from my nose!"

Day 14......Signs of improvement!

Kate seems to be making progress more and more each day. She is definitely feeling much better. Whatever "happy juice" they gave her while in surgery sure did the trick : ) Ever since she has come out of surgery, she has been more alert, has had better oxygen sats and just looks better. We've been able to slowly turn down her oxygen settings and the plan is , as of today.......is to hopefully extabate her off the ventilator tomorrow. We're very optimistic, however, we've learned from being here so long that we try not to get our hopes up. But, Kate is moving in the right direction. If everything goes well, she may be able to come home sometime this week. That would be ideal!

Kate's nurses seem to be drawn to her hair. Kate always has a new hairdo when we get to the hospital in the mornings. Today is "piggy tail" day : )

Yay for Daddy!

After 2 long years of going to school and working full-time, this day has been much anticipated. Bryan graduated this morning with his MBA from BYU.....yay! Even though Kate and I were not able to make it, we are glad that he was able to be honored. When Kate was first born, Bryan was just getting ready to start his 2nd year and we debated whether or not he should defer it for another year, but he chose to persevere. Even though this past year has been very challenging, we are so grateful that he was able to finish. I have to say that I am so proud of Bryan and all that he has accomplished. I am truly lucky to have such a fabulous husband!! So what's the plan now that he is finished.......that's the million dollar question : )

All-in-all, today was a very good day. Kate had her surgery this morning and everything went really well. In fact, after coming out of the anesthesia, she was wide awake and wanting to play. We've also been able to turn down her oxygen, which is a big step. So, where do we go from here?? Well, we are going to start giving Kate spontaneous trials off her vent, which means that Kate will do all the breathing while the tube is still in. This is going to be the biggest challenge because of her weak trachea which narrows near her lungs. However, Dr. Downey is very optimistic that if she is no longer refluxing, that her trachea will strengthen. We're not sure how long this is going to take, so we just have to be patient. At the end of the day, we are feeling very blessed!

Day 11....

Things are definitely starting to move in the right direction. We had a chance to speak with Dr. Downey this morning and he would like to move forward with the Nissen and G-Tube surgery. Much to our surprise, Kate is scheduled to go in at 7:30 am tomorrow morning. This is such a blessing. It just so happens that Bryan's graduation is tomorrow at 8:00 am. We didn't think that it would be this soon that she could get in, so we had just planned for Bryan to go to graduation. He has worked so hard these last two years and I would feel so bad if he wasn't honored, so he's going to go ahead and walk. My mom is coming up tomorrow and will be with me while Kate is in surgery. The procedure should only take about 2 hours, as she is having it done laproscopy instead of open chest. This is less invasive and the healing time is much quicker. We will definitely keep you all posted on how everything goes.

Day 10......

Today was a much better day!
Kate loves her Daddy!
Our neice, Drew, drew this picture and wanted it hung so Kate can look at it while she was in her hospital be. We thought it was so cute that we had to take a picture of it.

A little bit of news sure goes a long way. We got a call at midnight last night telling us that Kate has been scheduled for her Bronchoscopy at 7:30 am this morning. We were pleasantly surprised that she was scheduled so early. So, Bryan got up this morning and drove to the hospital to be there with her, while I waited for my Mom to come up. The test went really quick and the results came back better than expected. However, they found that most of the Tracheomalicia has been caused by her reflux. This is good news and bad news at the same time. The plan is to fix her reflux problem (by a Nissen & G-Tube) and see if her airway will improve before making any decisions about a Trach. We feel much better about this decision. We still need to consult with Dr. Downey (who will be performing the surgeries) and get an idea of when she will be able to have these done. From the look of things, it may not be until sometime next week. The hard thing is that we would have to keep her on the vent until her surgery. By doing so, it can be extremely harsh on her throat causing a lot of inflammation. It has been a much better day considering we have more of a plan of action.

Kate seems to be in much better spirits. She has actually been awake much more today and is less irritated. This has been nice because she has been able to play with her toys and actually get some stimulation. We are more hopeful about things and are looking forward to getting her better and home with us.

Day 8 and Day 9 - More Hospital Time :(

Well, this post might read a little different as Marcae isn't writing it, but I guess I will do. The last two days have been very frustrating for us because there has been no real change with our little Kate. She continues to be on the vent and the hospital has been so busy with scheduled and emergency operations that they have not been able to fit her in for another Bronchoscopy with a hard scope. We hope this will tell us what the next step in Kate's care will be. While Kate is in this holding pattern she doesn't seem to be getting better but the nurses try to keep her as comfortable as possible.

Basically, we are faced with the decision whether or not to perform 3 different surgeries because of recent problems Kate has had. 1 - A Tracheotomy 2 - A Nissen and 3- A G -tube. The last 2 go together as they both have to do with correcting her reflux, allowing her to be fed without risking her aspirating or damaging her lungs any further. These surgeries have become necessary because the doctors feel that she has Pulmonary Hypertension, which causes her heart to pump harder in order get blood into the lungs to get oxygenated, which then causes her heart to get bigger because it is working harder.

With the heart getting bigger in Kate's little chest it seems to be compromising and compressing on her airway now. Which is the reason for the first surgery, the Tracheotomy (trach). This is all very frustrating for us because all the problems seem to be interrelated and knowing what this could mean for how much time she might spend in the hospital really isn't exciting for us to realize, in fact it is very discouraging. But we continue to see how Kate fights to get better and it gives us hope for the time when we can bring her home again.

The plan for tomorrow is to squeeze her into the operating room's busy schedule to take a look at her trachea so we can decide what she needs first. Hopefully this will happen tomorrow so that we can get things scheduled and allow Kate to heal so that we can get her home as quickly as possible. We really appreciate and are thankful for every one's thoughts and prayers for our little family. I hope you all know that we feel them boost our spirits in times of trial. We continue to hope and pray for the time when we can have Kate home without any medical equipment and be able to just enjoy her.

Day 7...

The days at the hospital can be very long and draining, especially because we can't do much. Today we had the opportunity to attend Sacrament Meeting here. Wow!! What an amazing experience. The meeting is just 1/2 hour long with the passing of the Sacrament, a musical number and a short speaker. The Spirit is so strong. It really puts things into perspective that you don't have to look very far to see the many trials that people face and how lucky we are with the trials we do have. I am amazed at some of these other families who have much more challenging trials. It strengthens my testimony to see the faith and long suffering of these families.

Kate seems to be about the same. She is so FEISTY!!! In fact, every doctor and nurse makes jokes about not interrupting "Kate Time." She's knows what she likes and what she doesn't like.....and she lets you know when she is bugged : ) She Seems to be able to rest for the most part, but gets really irritated with the vent. We're not sure what the plan is for the week, but we think she may be going in for another Bronchoscopy tomorrow. This is a more advanced test than she had before. She will actually have it done in the operating room because she has to be put out for it. We're hoping to find from the Bronchoscopy, the size and scope of her Trachea. This will determine if they can operate on her Trachea by opening it up so she can breath better. If it's not feasible to operate, then we will have to resort to a Traech. At this point, we are just looking for an alternative.

My family came up to visit today and my Dad and Bryan gave Kate a very special blessing. The Priesthood is real and I believe that if we have faith, that it can bless our lives. I've seen this happen many times in my life and I am so grateful for it.

Day 6....

Kate had a little better day today. However, we got a call from her nurse at 2:30 am this morning telling us that Kate was having a hard time keeping her sats up being on CPAP. In fact, Kate was on the highest level of oxygen and still not making any progress, so we had to re-intabate her and put her back on the ventilator. This is very discouraging to us because it is so invasive to take her off the vent and put her back on it. Plus, it irritates her throat so much which causes her to gag and choke. It's very hard to watch her go though this. The hardest thing is not being able to hold her and comfort her. This is perhaps the most trying thing that we have ever had to endure. We're hoping that by surgically fixing her airway obstruction, that all the other things will correct themselves. It's just something we are going to have to wait and see. Weekends are pretty uneventful, as most doctors and specialists are off for the weekend. So, it looks like things should start rolling on Monday.

John and Michelle & the kids came and spent some time with us today. John and Bryan gave Kate a beautiful blessing. We have definitely felt that hand of the Lord through this experience. We are so grateful we have the Gospel and the comfort it brings to us.

Day 5....

Who says you can't look your best while in the hospital??

I got the curlers in her hair and then she was taken off the vent and back on CPAP, so there goes her curls.

Well, we ended up consulting with Kate's doctors this morning. They brought to us the harsh reality of Kate's condition, which in some respects is good, and in other respects is quite difficult to hear as parents. We found the most serious problem she is facing is a condition called Tracheomalacia (which is a very weak or soft Trachea). This is making it very hard for Kate to breath, which in turn may be increasing her heart size and function, as well as contributing to her Pulmonary Hypertension. According to the PH probe results, it shows Kate has significant reflux as well. There are a few options available to fix both problems, which would require a few different surgeries. This has been an extremely difficult decision for us to make, as we know how long it takes Kate to recover from surgery. We met with an ENT tonight who would like to do another Bronchoscopy to get a more detailed study. We're hoping that this will be conducted this weekend, so a decision can be made and we can schedule surgery.

Kate is doing really well and had a pretty good day. We decided to take her off the vent and back on CPAP. Since she was on it for 3 days, it caused a lot of irritation and swelling in her throat, so she has been pretty grumpy. However, she has done really well and is so glad to have that thing out of her throat.

It looks like Kate will be spending a few more weeks in the hospital, depending on when her surgeries are scheduled and how long it takes her to recover. Again, we appreciate all of your prayers and ask that you continue to pray for Kate.

Day 4....

Today was pretty uneventful.....so that means it was a good day. We got the results back from the PH probe test, but the Pulmonologist hasn't had a chance to read them and interpret them for us, so we'll find out tomorrow. From what it looks like, she is not refluxing as severely as we thought. But, we'll have to wait and see. There's also a chance that she may be able to come off the ventilator tomorrow. Yay!!! She will be one happy girl.....that's for sure. We have our meeting tomorrow at 8:15 am. Bryan and I have spent a lot of time researching her heart condition and have come up with a list of questions that we'll hopefully be able to get answered. The frustrating thing is that there are so many doctors involved in Kate's care that we get a lot of differing opinions. So having all of us together in one room will be very beneficial.

Kate continues to be the sweet, happy, patient girl she has always been. I can't even imagine what she must be thinking....especially with all of the tubes she has and having her hands restrained from trying to pull them out. It's a good thing that she won't remember any of this.

"Will someone please do something with my hair??"

I'm sure it gets pretty boring just staring at the ceiling all day, so we were able to utilize the overhead light by hanging her favorite doll from it. She gets so excited that it puts her right to sleep :)

Day 3....

Kate is not happy about being on the ventilator. The second her hands are free, they immediately go straight for the tubes. She knows all the naughty tricks : )
As you can see from the top picture, Kate really isn't taking well to being on the Vent. In fact, we are pretty sure that she HATES it. Today, they had to up her sedation again so she wouldn't fight the ventilator as much as she has. The problem is she has to come off sedation to come off the vent so it is a catch 22. We talked with a couple of doctors today and they didn't have the best news for Kate. They think that her Trachea might not be developed enough to support her growth which is why it is collapsing or closing. They have several options to help her maintain a competent airway. We will be discussing her on-going care in a conference Friday morning with a bunch of Kate's doctors. It will be good for us to get them all in one place at one time so we can get all our questions and concerns addressed and try to make an educated and informed decision about how best to address Kate's on-going health problems moving forward.
This new development with Kate could be because of her enlarged heart pushing her other organs and tissue out of the way, crunching her trachea in the process. Or it could be because her trachea is naturally weaker and underdeveloped. So there are many possibilities and it becomes very frustrating for us to make decisions about what is best for her care.

We remain optimistic about Kate's future. We continue to have faith that Heavenly Father has a plan for our little girl, and we continue to try and align with that plan. We are definitely learning patience and humility, and most of what we can do for Kate involves praying and being by her side. We are continually grateful for the health care facilities we have access to and are privileged to be able to take Kate to. The doctors and nurses have been so wonderful. However, we would much rather have her home with us : )

Day 2...

Today has been an eventful day. Last night Kate was put on the ventilator and a PICC line was placed. Today, she had an MRI on both her brain and heart. She had to be completely sedated for this, so she has been a sleepy girl. The reports are in, but we haven't had a chance to talk to the Neurologist and Cardiologist to get the full report. So far, we don't know what is causing Kate's trachea to collapse. We had hoped that the MRI would show this conclusively, but it didn't. Preliminary findings for the MRI stated that the heart is not significantly precluding the airway. But, not all the doctors have had a chance to review the study.

Now, we sit and wait until the doctors come up with a plan of action to open her airway. The good news is that Neurology doesn't seem to think that there will be any further follow-ups for Kate in the future, as the preliminary CT scan and MRI didn't show any significant brain abnormalities. So where does that leave us???? That is the big question. Kate seems to want to keep us guessing.

The PH probe test is tentatively scheduled for tomorrow and we're hoping to get her off the vent in the morning. We're still not sure when she will be able to come home, but we hope we can get to the bottom of this so we can get her off oxygen.

We are so grateful for all of your calls, e-mails, prayers and support.

Not another hospital visit!!!

The last couple of days have been really stressful for us. Kate was admitted to Primary's yesterday afternoon after she stopped breathing a couple times and required CPR to bring her back. This happened about 3 times before taking her up to the hospital. She ended up having about 7 apnea spells yesterday. Through many numerous tests, they have found that she is having seizures. The probable cause is unknown but they are coming from her left frontal lobe of her brain. The seizure causes her to stop breathing and turn blue, which isn't very fun. But the positive thing is she isn't convulsing.

They have found that she has been having difficulty breathing because her heart, post surgery, has become so enlarged that it is pushing and closing her airway into her lungs. Her airway is almost 80% closed because of this. So, lack of oxygen and the stress that it causes to have her airway blocked could be causing her to go into these seizures. But, that is unknown of course. She has a few other tests scheduled this week and they might have to place a catheter up into her heart to check the function and actually look at the repair, trying to find out why her right atrium has become so enlarged. They told us that the right atrium is the size of all 3 other chambers combined. Right now, they have her on a medication to alleviate the fluid and pressure off her heart. We are hoping this will make a difference.

We are very optimistic that things will work themselves out....Kate is definitely a little fighter. We have seen so many miracles in our lives and know that there are many more to come. Please keep Kate in your prayers.

Kate had to be put on a C-PAP machine to help her breathe. She also had an EEG test to monitor her brain activity (hence the stylish turban.... :)

Kate has the best Daddy in the world!

Kate absolutely adores her dad! Tonight Kate and Bryan had "Daddy Daughter Night" while I went to a wedding with my mom. Bryan's idea of "Daddy Daughter Night" consists of hanging out at Home Depot. When I got home, I had to laugh at the outfit Byran put her in. Not only is it totally mismatched, but her shirt is on backwards.......bless his heart! Kate is definitely a little Daddy's girl! I have to say that Kate and I lucked out! We love you : )

Not just a tooth......A MOLAR!!!

Okay, so Kate has been teething and has been really fussy, hasn't wanted to eat and has had some pretty funky sleeping patterns the last couple of days. We noticed that she has a bud on her lower gum. One thing she really likes is when I massage her gums with my finger. Well, I was doing just that today and massaging her gums when I came across a sharp object in the back of her mouth. Sure enough it's a tooth that has broke the surface. I'm assuming it's a molar. No wonder why she has been grumpy. From what I understand, it's not very common to get molars before incisors......just little surprises around every corner for the Rosenvall's!

Bryan didn't believe me when I told him, so we had to wait until she was asleep to get a good look. It's a little hard to see it in this picture.